December 25, 2001 - Tuesday

Whee! Christmas special! Again, this one is broken up.. it's 5 parts. A special thanks to E-chan.. she wrote it and helped me color it. I couldn't have done it otherwise. =^.^= Part 2 Part 3 Part 4 Part 5

[^Young^] - 12:44 AM PST

December 26, 2001 - Wednesday

Hey all. Much apologies for I missed the X-mas party. For some reason I kept on thinking it was gonna be on Sunday. Turned out that an old high school buddy of mine came home for the holidays from Chicago. He's a med student. So I hung out with him on Friday. Again much apoligies to everyone. Gee, I feel so bad. Aside from that I haven't said much on the forums or in the rants. My internet access sucks cause I'm using Netzero and they only give ya 10 hours a month. All ten hours I always use to download pr0....er, I mean...heh heh...surf the web. I'm waiting for my DSL to arrive. Should be up on Jan 3. I'm also waiting for the equipment. I've also been kinda meditating. That's why I've been somewhat MIA. Kinda reflecting about myself. Thinking about my last job and what I need to do to find another job. More so I think I'm selling myself short on stuff and my abilities. I talked to a good friend the other day. He gave me words of encouragement that made me open my eyes. All this time I was always envious of others thinking that they had more success than I had, though my friend pointed out of the things that people maybe envious of me for. I never really counted my blessing until recently. I use to complain how I lacked independence cause I lived with my parents and felt shackled under their rule. But really, I'm lucky to have this advantage to be able to still live under my parents house despite I do lack some privacy and I do have to let them know where I am. Plus I have so much free time but I don't use it wisely. That's another blessing. I have so much time just to work on my own stuff and just create. Of course I'm gonna have to find a job sometime soon but now I have an opportunity to lose myself in my own world and create. I felt really comfortable when I was working at my previous job but that was bad. It held me back. I shoulda took the time to try and see what else was out there for me. It's funny. Friends can see things that I can't. I don't know if I choose not to see them or maybe I'm afraid to bring them out and see them. Sometimes there's a lotta doubt in myself and I wonder if they're just say that about me to make me feel better or if it's true. Maybe I'm just too humble to want to admit good qualities in me. Maybe I fear people telling me that kinda stuff cause I'm afraid that I'll become a cocky bastard thinking that I'm a bad ass at everything. Through most of my life I always wanted to be the grunt. I never thought of myself as a leader figure. I think I'm selling myself short. More so I feel that I have betrayed my friends for not taking all the good things that they said about me. Thank you. Thank you for telling me how well I draw. Thank you for telling me that I can kick ass despite I've been outta practice in martial arts for six years. Thanks for inviting me to places and letting me hang out with you. Thanks for telling me that despite how many women have rejected me that I'm a nice guy and that I deserved someone better. Thanks for making me part of Nekobox.org despite I haven't contributed much to it. Thanks for letting me borrow a whole bunch of anime despite it's taking me a long time to go through it and return it back. Thank you. And if I ever do become a cocky bastard who thinks he's a bad ass at everything, just beat the crap outta me.

[^o0Kynger0o^] - 4:36 PM PST

December 30, 2001 - Sunday

Countdown until the New Year! Woo. So, anyone doing anything cool?

[^Louis^] - 1:38 PM PST

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