December 4, 2004 - Saturday

I'm getting BOB san something uber cool. And I'm getting Merle kun something he has a lot of already. And Natsu something she wants, but never seems to alow herself to get. and for me... I got myself the Yamatonadeshiko dvd box set. shiku shiku shiku :)

[^sukedachi^] - 11:20 AM PST

Every holiday is the same thing. Companies have their holiday parties and I end up having to work long weekend night hours and watch horrible dancing. People can't dance. But shit, they paid hella money to have their party and dance like an ass so I can't say shit either but just watch and make it through every night until the holiday season is over. I better find that internship soon. Other than that, I never can figure out what to give people for the holidays. I think money is good. I should just give people money. Yeah, with money one size fits all. Don't have to worry about a receipt to return or exchange. Fuck. Another holiday season owned by work. All my holidays are belong to work. Shit, there was more I was gonna say but I don't wanna sound like an angsty whiney sonofabitch. I just hope that someday I'll get to where I want to be and have what I want. Just seems to take forever and no matter how much I try to do what I need to do or do what it takes it just seems it is never enough to reach that goal and I must constantly put more and more into it to get there and the more I put into it the farther it seems to reach. It's been only two semesters though and I'm still taking foundation courses and I haven't had a portfolio review yet. Need to bust ass this winter break as far as drawing. Can't do anything with foam because I don't have access to a shop or bansaw. I could get my own but then there's no room to put it in. For now my ideas can only reside in drawings. I also have to learn Rhino too. Might be easier for me since I have prior 3D computer experience. So much to do in one month. This is why I feel so isolated and alone. Although I did receive one word of encouragement. Though it sounded so cliche and corny just hearing it from a club member at work kind ingited something. I was walking to my car after working the day shift and one of the members saw me and said, "Gonna hit the books, eh?" I smiled back and waved. He then said, "Don't worry Kingsley. All that hard work is gonna pay off." I hope to fuckin' god that'll be true.

[^o0Kynger0o^] - 11:49 PM PST

December 5, 2004 - Sunday

how sad... teh jon's gonna get jumped for lookin' out for his people... just what I get for trying to help society :p that reminds me, I should wrap my gifts :)

[^sukedachi^] - 11:32 PM PST

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